I stopped trying once I found something really important to live for. Comparing them to others who cope better, or who simply are lucky enough to never have suicidal thoughts, may only worsen their self-condemnation. I feel drained and have no emotion. Hey I just read your post and I hope you are able to cope with your thoughts of suicide and depression. I hope not, you would throw it away and put on a one a different one that works. So, for the first time in almost 7 years, I am back on medication and have been referred to therapy despite not believing they will do much for me. I've been to see someone once and what they basically do is assess you initially to see what kind of mental state you're in.
All this and so much more going on like I also have a lot of health issues. A few weeks ago I was strongly considering post-grad study, now I feel like throwing in the towel completely. Everything feels like it is 10 harder for me than for normal people. Thanks for all the encouraging word. May you sense the love and presence of our Abba Father right now as He heals and restores your soul. So I have to live in this eternal hell… hoping for a miracle.
I hope you don't slide down onto suicidal feelings of the third kind - if you need to call for help, I'm here and so are others in the forum. I just want all the bodily pain to end. I put myself in the hospital 2 years ago. I have Bipolar Disorder and other illnesses and my mind is basically a living hell. And no matter how bad things got at night, I always made it to school in the morning, as if nothing happened.
One we have no contact with because of death threats against us and the other, his mother ties him up so tight with activities, we never see him. Things are so fucking fragile. You need to understand their struggles and why they struggle. Body, mind, spirit, the trinity. I know that seems like a lot, but the result is that throughout the day I'll find myself automatically saying positive things to myself, which is something I welcome, since I spent so long saying mostly negative things to myself which got me absolutely nowhere. I find it hard to believe there are no adults that you can become friends with.
I don't see the point to life. Systemic conversation: Used to find connections to your own concealed resources. I was diagnosed at 16 with anxiety,bipolar disorder, depression, and physcotic depression. There are no longer any consequences to fear: no arrest, no jail, no trial, no families of the victims to face, no remorse, no nothing. An affliction we continue to sweep under the rug and blame on guns, the economy and every other thing. A change is as good as a rest, you need to move on or you will be eaten up and spat out With regard your Depressive state, I do not know your location so I cannot really advise. I curse God for dumping all this on me, and for totally ignoring my pleas for some help or relief.
Six years on Venlafexine dreadful drug, horrific night mares all through, developed pyles due to hard motions had two ops to remove now have an enlarged liver. When my , I remind myself about just one thing that I am good at, like writing. Done everything… Health a mess through all the years on meds to try and help,. Perhaps they just need a little bit of a show of faith that you will never do this again. She left and went to the bedroom. I also have an excellent relationship with my parents now. With just a few words, you convey your pain very powerfully.
She had talked about suicide as if she would do it tonight…. For the most part I am on autopilot. Thanks for sharing your story. Sometimes, even with therapy and help, the demons win. I am usually so honest; an open book.
I don't know where ur from but if it is making u ill as u do sound depressed is there no one u can talk to and tell them? Gone, under any and all conditions, I could never die by my own hand because now I was responsible for these kids. Good luck and take care! His parents blame her and I think she blames herself as well. And if you will seek Him with all your heart, you will find Him and know Him and He will fill you with joy unspeakable and fill you with glory. Its the day we remembering the Gift God gave to humanity,our Lord Jesus. He has 2 boys from past relationships. I really have tried to make the best of my life. Long story short, you are so worth it.
Looks like she wants you to leave one way or the other. I come to this website in need of help, a mental boost really. Searching for a solution to this existential dread. Was grandmother in public housing? This sort of statement conveys disbelief and judgment, not understanding. Also you can try the textline by texting 741741. That is what the article mentions. For youth under 20, you can call the Kids Help Phone at 1-800-668-6868.
So I'm not asking this question out of sense of panic. I believe you when you say it is difficult to talk with people about what you are feeling. Know that you're an extremely valuable person and that you deserve all the tools that are available to help yourself!!!!! There is no shame in it at all. I want so much for things to be better. It got worse now that we are in a psychiatric ward shift And yes, I dishonestly passed our mental health test. I will simply encourage you to add another message.